Welcome

This is a documentation of my journey seeking "my best self"
I am a blessed woman, 2 healthy loving sons and an abundance of all that one needs.
This is not a journey to more of the material stuff, but in seeking my passion and living my best life.
Due to illness, parenting, and busy everyday life, life has lived me instead of me living life.
The purpose of this journey is to turn this back one step at a time.
How will I accomplish this? This I will learn gradually, one thing I am sure of each day of my journey will take me closer to myself.

Blessings,

ETA: I am separated and I can assure you it is for the better. The boys and I are doing good, they are sad but at least they have some breathing space now and don't have to march to the beat of their father's drum anymore. I am more relieved than sad and feel freed from his constant state of depression and lathargic way of living.


donderdag 23 augustus 2007

Skin and bodycare




I am lazy and I am not ashamed to admit it lol :-P Every time I buy new face or body products I use the religiously for a week and after that it just get's less and less and less. This year I made a promise to myself to go to the beatician every 6 weeks to get pampered! My skin is really benefitting from this, but I could have been totally cleared up and blemish free by now if I stuck to my routine!




It's 8:18 now and I am still in my pj's no shower, no combing, no nada! From this day on I promise myself that I will take better care of me! Right now my excuse is that I am way to tired and sick to take care of me. But I know that taking care of me always helps me feel a lil better so hat just does not make sense does it?! Don't get me wrong I am sick I am anemic and I have an H.S. outburst! So yeah I am allowed to feel dreadful but I don't have to look it right!




I would love the innerstrenght to stick to this daytime routine:




Get out of bed and shower immediately!


-Rub some e.v. olive oil or cocaobutter on my skin


-Brush teeth


-put in hairproducts and comb/fix hair


-Cleanse with Clarins one step facial cleaner


-Slap on some Multi-active Day cream-gel from Clarins


-Get dressed in something other than sweatsuits


-Put on a lil lipstick and mascara


(3x a week use @home microdermabrasia set)




Not much but still I skip out on this almost daily!! There are days that I just put some good ole shea in my braids or twist, brush my teeth and take a shower at night! Shamefull I know!




Nightroutine


-Take shower and Brush teeth


-Cleanse with Clarins one step facial cleaner
-Slap on some Multi-active Day cream-gel from Clarins


-Put on nightie




Again not much! Still I skip out on this! There are days that I am so tired and in pain that I even jump in bed without brushing my teeth! I know I know I disgust myself!




Hair we go...


My hair is natural and I love it! One downside I just have no clue how to handle it when I am sick! I had a relaxer 3x times in my life and all those times are engraved in my memory! First relaxer: mom was too tired of combing all that hair (waistlenght really thick braids!) and brought me to a homesalon to relax. I was 15 at the time and never having a relax and all girlfriends were exited I was getting one I figured it was a good thing. It wasn't, it really hurt me and while relaxing the hairdresser send out her daughter for a few more pots of relaxer she had never delt with that much hair before! My scalp was severely damaged I had large wounds and my hair was horrible! Bonestraight and it smelled really burned!!! I demanded it would be cut cause the monster was now over my butt! She cut it to waistlength and everyone went gaga over my hair! The second time: I was starting college (21) and had a 1 yr old so I decided to make it less of a hassle relaxing would be the answer (how could I have forgotten the last experience!!!) S.O.S.* pain pain pain! Third time (25): you'd think the previous desasters would have made me think twice when a girlfriend told me that she could make my hair more manageble by doing a mild relaxer (LADIES THERE IS NO SUCH THING AS A MILD RELAXER!) The kiddie relaxer was on for 2 minutes when I screamed out in pain! My scalp was once again burned and my hair had gotten bonestraight in those 2 minutes!!! That was the last time that the firecream touched my head and it will stay that way for the rest of my life!


I decided to let my hair grow to the length it was when I was a little girl. I figured if my mom took the time and energy to take care of my hair with love I should at least be able to do the same! Before the beginning of this year I would hide my uncombed hair underneath headwraps, I promised myself not to do this again. I had a few embarrassing experiences in the hospital having to take off the headwrap to lay still for MRI's and just laying there ashamed of the uncombed mess on my head.


The length is now a lil over my bra-strap and so far so good, the only time I have real problems is when I'm in too much pain to comb it. I make a few big braids and cover it with a headwrap at least when the wrap comes off the hair is nicely tamed in the braids ;-)


I am still looking for products to use to tame my hair make it less frizzy and easier to comb out. Till I have found the right products I stick to the natural stuff: Sheabutter to twist and braid, e.v. olive oil to condition and african black soap to wash.


Any suggestions productwise would be very welcome!


Blessings,


Chayil







Proverbs 31:10-30


10 A wife of noble character who can find? She is worth far more than rubies.
11 Her husband has full confidence in her and lacks nothing of value.
12 She brings him good, not harm, all the days of her life.
13 She selects wool and flax and works with eager hands.
14 She is like the merchant ships, bringing her food from afar.
15 She gets up while it is still dark; she provides food for her family and portions for her servant girls.
16 She considers a field and buys it; out of her earnings she plants a vineyard.
17 She sets about her work vigorously; her arms are strong for her tasks.
18 She sees that her trading is profitable, and her lamp does not go out at night.
19 In her hand she holds the distaff and grasps the spindle with her fingers.
20 She opens her arms to the poor and extends her hands to the needy.
21 When it snows, she has no fear for her household; for all of them are clothed in scarlet.
22 She makes coverings for her bed; she is clothed in fine linen and purple.
23 Her husband is respected at the city gate, where he takes his seat among the elders of the land.
24 She makes linen garments and sells them, and supplies the merchants with sashes.
25 She is clothed with strength and dignity; she can laugh at the days to come.
26 She speaks with wisdom, and faithful instruction is on her tongue.
27 She watches over the affairs of her household and does not eat the bread of idleness.
28 Her children arise and call her blessed; her husband also, and he praises her:
29 "Many women do noble things, but you surpass them all."
30 Charm is deceptive, and beauty is fleeting; but a woman who fears the LORD is to be praised.