Welcome

This is a documentation of my journey seeking "my best self"
I am a blessed woman, 2 healthy loving sons and an abundance of all that one needs.
This is not a journey to more of the material stuff, but in seeking my passion and living my best life.
Due to illness, parenting, and busy everyday life, life has lived me instead of me living life.
The purpose of this journey is to turn this back one step at a time.
How will I accomplish this? This I will learn gradually, one thing I am sure of each day of my journey will take me closer to myself.

Blessings,

ETA: I am separated and I can assure you it is for the better. The boys and I are doing good, they are sad but at least they have some breathing space now and don't have to march to the beat of their father's drum anymore. I am more relieved than sad and feel freed from his constant state of depression and lathargic way of living.


vrijdag 30 november 2007

weightloss so far

maandag 19 november 2007

Thank you's and Letting go!

Thank you for all the comments and sweet remarks I am definately coming to visit each and everyone of you for personal thank you's. For now I will have to do it this way caus my youngest son is ill we have no idea yet what is wrong with him he has really high temperature and swollen glands in his neck. Blood results will be in on thursday till then the doctor put him on broxil to make sure that wherever the inflammation is it won't spread out. I am worried sick but refuse to start doomthinking caus I know that will stress me out and put me in the hospitalbed.

I decided to just pick a gateway that "speaks" to me from "sacred woman" and start there. The gateway that spoke to me most is sacred space. I have been really dissatisfied with my house. It's small, damp, cluttered and cold! After doing a lot of calculations I came to the conclusion that renting a bigger house is something we just cannot afford right now and buying is not an option either since we have no idea whether or not we are staying in this country. My only option was to be make due with what I have. Like Cicero said: "Gratitude is not only the greatest of virtues, but the parent of all the others." I am ungrateful for not seeing the blessings of my home! We have a roof over our head, running water, plenty of healthy produce in the fridge and games/tv's and so on enough for hearts desire! I started with the heart of my home the kitchen, my dh helped me to scrub the entire kitchen from ceiling to floor. It took us a good 6 hours to clean out every nook and cranny of the sticky, icky kitchen. We trew out everything that we hadn't touched in 12 months to make sure that everything we needed and loved had it's own space in the cubboards. The results are astounding! The kitchen smells fresh and looks clean and inviting! Best of all it did not cost me a dime!!! All I needed was hot water, green soap and elbow grease! Since reclaiming the kitchen everyone seems to love it no dishes are left on the counter, no messes are left after fixing a sandwich everyone pitches in to keep it clean and clutter free without me having to demand (read scream and throw tantrum) in order for it to be done! My kitchen is super duper tiny 2,5 by 4 meters but it feels huge now that all the clutter is removed. I tackled my sons their bedrooms in exactly the same way and they love playing in their rooms now! Wich gives me and dh some more alone time caus the boys go upstairs to play a lot more wich leaves us to enjoy the livingroom by ourselves. It was almost like the housing company read my mind caus they started dubble glazing the windows and doors in order to tackle the dampness and cold. I have read up on the subject of making the house dampfree and started applying some of the tips and tricks so far so good the house is feeling a lil warmer so we are on the right track.

Letting go of the clutter and the dissatisfaction, has somehow helped my body to let go of all the extra weight I now have a healthy bmi of 24.7! Since it took me a good 2 yrs to get rid of all the extra weight, eating healthy is now a habit and not something I dread!

I have to go now caus the lil man is not feeling well and dh is about to go to the office for a converance call.

Blessings and thanks again,


Chayil

zondag 4 november 2007

Just a little loc update...

It's a little over a month and my babies are doing great. No signs of budding yet put patience is a virtue, I've been told :-P


I wonder why I didn't start this journey sooner! I absolutely love this spritz and go lifestyle. It has even effected my moods for the better I feel sexy even when I wake up! Those bad hair mornings are over! Now when dh tries to cuddle in the morning I don't kiss and fix hair with the other hand LOL I can firmly grab him with both ;-) Okay TMI

This is a pic of my progress so far:


Can you see the progress around my waist and under my bra! I am so glad those underbra lovehandles are disappearing


Blessings,
Chayil