Too the love of my life..

If ever a song was written about how I feel about my dh it's cater 2 U from destiny's child. Eventhough most women I know think that the lyrics are nauseating, I think this is the way every women should feel! Face it if ya don't feel it that man is not the right man for you! I love my boo and I enjoy catering 2 him. How could you not want to serve the man that provides for you, takes care of your children and all of that with a smile and gentle heart?! So for all you ladies who love and need to cater to their men. Enjoy! For the rest of ya'll I pray that someday you will find your soulmate that you will want to cater 2.




Baby I see you workin' hard
I want to let cho know I'm Proud
let you know that I admire what you do
The more if I need to reassure you, my life would
be purposeless without you
If I want (got it)
When I ask you (you provide it)
You inspire me to be better
You challenge me for the better
Sit back and let me pour out my love letter

Let me help you
Take off your shoes
Untie your shoestrings
Take off your cufflinks
What you wanna eat boo
Let me feed you
Let me run your bathwater,
What ever you desire, I'll apsire
Sing you a song
Turn my game on
I'll brush your hair
Help you put your do rag on
Want a foot rub
You want a manicure
Baby I'm yours I want to cater to you boy

Let me cater to you
Cause baby this is your day
Do anything for my man
Baby you blow me away
I got cha slippers ya dinner ya dessert
and so much more
Anything you want just let me cater to you
Inspire me from the heart,
can't nothing tear us apart
You're all I want in a man;
I put my life in your hands
I got cha slippers ya dinner ya dessert
and so much more
Anything you want, I want to cater to you

Baby I'm happy you're home
let me hold you in my arms
I just want to take the stress away from you
Making sure that I'm doing my part
Boy is there something you need me to do
If you want it (i got it)
Say the word I (i will try it)
I know whatever I'm not fulfilling
No other woman is willing
I'm going to fulfill you mind, body and spirit
I promise you
I'll keep myself up
Remain the same chick
You fell in love with
I'll keep it tight, I'll keep my figure right
I'll keep my hair fixed,keep rockin my
hottest outfits
When you come home late tap me on my shoulder,
I'll roll ova
Baby I heard you, I'm here to serve you
(i'm lovin it i'm lovin it)
If it's love you need, to give it is my joy
All I want to do, is cater to you boy

I want to give you my breath, my strength,
my will to be here
That's the least I can do,
Let me cater to you
Through the good
The bad
The up and the downs
I'll still be here for you
Let me cater to you
Cause you're beautiful
I love the way you are
Fulfill your every desire
Your wish is my command
I want to cater to my man
Your heart
So pure your love shines through
The darkness we'll get through
So much of me is you
I want to cater to my man

Define me! ( I dare you lol)

Christ-mas (yes Christ-mas not christmas the time that evolves and revolves around gifts and loads of food but Christ-mas the actual celebration of Jezus Christ) time is/was always the time to reflect on my faith and religion.

This year is a little different well no a lot different. I was born and raised a Roman Catholic and as a little girl I've always enjoyed going to church. After moving to Amsterdam, it took a while but I joined the church my great-aunt (may she rest in peace) was a member of and felt right at home. A few years ago I moved to a dutch town, now having a family of my own, the first thing I did after making sure my family was comfortable at home was find a Catholic church.

The father was a great man, he welcomed us with open arms, the church members where a different story! The members consisted of elderly white people only! With the exception of 3 young (white) families. All the time that we were in the church for mass and for after church coffee and tea there was not one word spoken to us! Dh decided never to go back to that church but I felt like we needed to give it some time and went to mass every sunday with my son. 3 months later still not a word uttered to me, my son who was going to sundayschool in the church was asked again and again how come he was brown and why his daddy was white by the other kids. Now I understand curiousity in kids but I feel that the sundayschool teacher was supposed to talk about it with the kids once and than kindly ask them to stick to the subject of the day, and not my son his race! My son did not experience any trauma from these incidents he just kept repeating his answers caus he is and always was extremely comfortable in his own skin. The thing that creeped me out the most is when I saw a picturebook the sundayschool teacher was using with a blond haired, blue eyed Jezus!!! Come on people are you really that racist that you would change the appearance of the LORD to make you feel more superior?!!! For me that was THE sign I walked out the church after mass to never return. The father came to visit us and talked, pleaded for us to come back promised he would talk to the congregation but I just couldn't! I mean is my family really that repulsive that the father needs to talk to the congregation to accept us? Merely because we are an interracial family not because we are rude or antisocial or for any valid reason but for the colour of our skin?! After that I visited more catholic churches in the village but all felt the same to me. Uninviting, cold, rude and dare I say racist. I decided to pray at home with my family, when visiting family in Amsterdam we would go to the church I went to as a teenager. I felt at ease with my decision.

When Pope Johannes Paulus II died in April 2005 (may he rest in peace) I was praying for a more liberal more understanding more connected-with-this-time new pope. I was excited about the con clavus and felt a little disappointment every time I saw black smoke from the chimney. See to me it was clear who the new pope should have been I will not speak of it anymore caus it is decided. When white smoke came out the chimney I was thrilled for me this meant a new ara a new time for all catholics in the world a time for needed change. I was extremely disappointed that the new pope was not only extremely old (no disrespect to the elderly but this did not make sense to me!) he was also an old member of the Hitler-jugend!!!! I was extremely disappointed we were "blessed" again with a pope who continued to preach abstanance and continued to shove childmolestation by "fathers" under the rug!

I could not take it any more! I understand that as a catholics or christians we should abstain from sex untill we are committed and united in GOD with our mates. But honestly in this day and age I feel that we are irresponsible to teach our youths only about abstinance! I teach my son about all consequenses and aspects of sex! Yes afcourse I would be delighted if he abstained till marriage but if he doesn't I pray and beg GOD to keep him safe! To make him use his common sense and a condom! Has the vatican never heard of aids? Have they never even talked amongst themselves about the situation in africa where our fellow catholics still don't use condoms because they keep preaching that it is a sin! Have they no sense of resposibility??!!! I am blessed to be with a trustworthy man that would never endanger me and sleep around to bring a std home to me! So yes it is easy to claim superiority about the fact that we do not use birthcontrole but instead opt for natural family planning. Would I do the same if I knew I had a man that cheated?! I sure hope I wouldn't be that gullible! I am not even going to talk about the sexual abuse of little boys in church wich would make any mother more than hesitant to send her son for altar boy! I know I am! All I have to say on the subject is that it sickens me that those who we turn to for protection and guidence have proven to be the biggest predators.

As the world evolves truths are revealled the truth about the catholic church burning documents in order to surpress women. Documents that some claim would reveal the truth about the relationship between Jezus Christ and Maria Magdalena whether or not they were a family or whether she was an apostle. I really honestly think that portraiying the woman of most influence as a cheap whore is yet another way of the church to keep women in their "place"
As you can tell from my rambling I am not a catholic any longer I have fallen off my religion no not my faith but my religion! So I dare you to define me! While the world and people around me try to stick labels on me trying to define me as rastafari, christian, atheist (this one confuses me lol I know that GOD is simply caus I am!) I will continue in my journey to being a virtuous woman a Proverbs 31:10-30 wife and mother.

I know who I am and GOD knows who I am no middle man needed no need for definition. Wich ever path GOD will take me on I will follow.

Blessings,

Proverbs 31:10-30

10 A wife of noble character who can find? She is worth far more than rubies.
11 Her husband has full confidence in her and lacks nothing of value.
12 She brings him good, not harm, all the days of her life.
13 She selects wool and flax and works with eager hands.
14 She is like the merchant ships, bringing her food from afar.
15 She gets up while it is still dark; she provides food for her family and portions for her servant girls.
16 She considers a field and buys it; out of her earnings she plants a vineyard.
17 She sets about her work vigorously; her arms are strong for her tasks.
18 She sees that her trading is profitable, and her lamp does not go out at night.
19 In her hand she holds the distaff and grasps the spindle with her fingers.
20 She opens her arms to the poor and extends her hands to the needy.
21 When it snows, she has no fear for her household; for all of them are clothed in scarlet.
22 She makes coverings for her bed; she is clothed in fine linen and purple.
23 Her husband is respected at the city gate, where he takes his seat among the elders of the land.
24 She makes linen garments and sells them, and supplies the merchants with sashes.
25 She is clothed with strength and dignity; she can laugh at the days to come.
26 She speaks with wisdom, and faithful instruction is on her tongue.
27 She watches over the affairs of her household and does not eat the bread of idleness.
28 Her children arise and call her blessed; her husband also, and he praises her:
29 "Many women do noble things, but you surpass them all."
30 Charm is deceptive, and beauty is fleeting; but a woman who fears the LORD is to be praised.