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This is a documentation of my journey seeking "my best self"
I am a blessed woman, 2 healthy loving sons and an abundance of all that one needs.
This is not a journey to more of the material stuff, but in seeking my passion and living my best life.
Due to illness, parenting, and busy everyday life, life has lived me instead of me living life.
The purpose of this journey is to turn this back one step at a time.
How will I accomplish this? This I will learn gradually, one thing I am sure of each day of my journey will take me closer to myself.

Blessings,

ETA: I am separated and I can assure you it is for the better. The boys and I are doing good, they are sad but at least they have some breathing space now and don't have to march to the beat of their father's drum anymore. I am more relieved than sad and feel freed from his constant state of depression and lathargic way of living.


maandag 31 december 2007

Wishing you all a safe and tasty turn of the year!


Oh dear, uhm how bout a new year's resolution?

I shamefully have to admit that I have fallen off the wagon, ALREADY!!
I drank my 3 ltrs of water had my 2 pieces of fruit, controlled my portionsize but stuffed my face after 8 p.m. It's not my fault really, I blame the hubbie! He has been bringing temptation into the bedroom (different kind than usual (wink))and eventhough I have resisted the chocolatecake he brought last night and took a fuji apple and some popcorn instead. it's still eating past 8! So far I have eaten after 8 for every frickin' day of the valentine's challenge! From bonbons to popcorn to somewhat healthy apples. So I promise myself from now on (xcept for 2-night come on ya'll I can't stop eating at 8 tonight when I will be up till next morning/afternoon) I will NOT EAT AFTER 8P.M. Tonight I will share my new years resolutions with dh and I will make sure he understands that NO FOOD is to come into the bedroom! NO HE AIN'T ALLOWED EITHER! Wonder how that last sentence is gonna go down but a girl can try right?

So say goodbye to 2007 and the undercover eaters! Hello 2008 full of healthy wise food choices!



Signed a recovered undercover eater!

zaterdag 29 december 2007

Too the love of my life..

If ever a song was written about how I feel about my dh it's cater 2 U from destiny's child. Eventhough most women I know think that the lyrics are nauseating, I think this is the way every women should feel! Face it if ya don't feel it that man is not the right man for you! I love my boo and I enjoy catering 2 him. How could you not want to serve the man that provides for you, takes care of your children and all of that with a smile and gentle heart?! So for all you ladies who love and need to cater to their men. Enjoy! For the rest of ya'll I pray that someday you will find your soulmate that you will want to cater 2.




Baby I see you workin' hard
I want to let cho know I'm Proud
let you know that I admire what you do
The more if I need to reassure you, my life would
be purposeless without you
If I want (got it)
When I ask you (you provide it)
You inspire me to be better
You challenge me for the better
Sit back and let me pour out my love letter

Let me help you
Take off your shoes
Untie your shoestrings
Take off your cufflinks
What you wanna eat boo
Let me feed you
Let me run your bathwater,
What ever you desire, I'll apsire
Sing you a song
Turn my game on
I'll brush your hair
Help you put your do rag on
Want a foot rub
You want a manicure
Baby I'm yours I want to cater to you boy

Let me cater to you
Cause baby this is your day
Do anything for my man
Baby you blow me away
I got cha slippers ya dinner ya dessert
and so much more
Anything you want just let me cater to you
Inspire me from the heart,
can't nothing tear us apart
You're all I want in a man;
I put my life in your hands
I got cha slippers ya dinner ya dessert
and so much more
Anything you want, I want to cater to you


Baby I'm happy you're home
let me hold you in my arms
I just want to take the stress away from you
Making sure that I'm doing my part
Boy is there something you need me to do
If you want it (i got it)
Say the word I (i will try it)
I know whatever I'm not fulfilling
No other woman is willing
I'm going to fulfill you mind, body and spirit
I promise you
I'll keep myself up
Remain the same chick
You fell in love with
I'll keep it tight, I'll keep my figure right
I'll keep my hair fixed,keep rockin my
hottest outfits
When you come home late tap me on my shoulder,
I'll roll ova
Baby I heard you, I'm here to serve you
(i'm lovin it i'm lovin it)
If it's love you need, to give it is my joy
All I want to do, is cater to you boy

I want to give you my breath, my strength,
my will to be here
That's the least I can do,
Let me cater to you
Through the good
The bad
The up and the downs
I'll still be here for you
Let me cater to you
Cause you're beautiful
I love the way you are
Fulfill your every desire
Your wish is my command
I want to cater to my man
Your heart
So pure your love shines through
The darkness we'll get through
So much of me is you
I want to cater to my man

vrijdag 28 december 2007

Day one of the valentine's challenge :-)

I made some new tickers to track my waist and weight for the valentine's challenge.

As you can see I gained some pounds due to way to much eating and the time of the month. I also changed my goal from 125 to 121 will I make it dunno but it will be fun to try :-P



Today I will drink at least 2 ltrs of water and eat 2 pieces of fruit






Hope everyone had a wonderful christmas and is ready for the battle against the lbs!

vrijdag 21 december 2007

Remember my virtual model?

Goal~~~~~~~~ 09/12/07~~~~~~ Today


Not bad right?! I'm getting there slowly but surely :-D

Last day of the Fall Challenge!

Today is the last day of my fall challenge! My goal was to loose 15 pounds as you can see in the chart below I have lost exactly 18 pounds!!!

I need to loose 6.2 more pounds to be at my ideal weight of 125.4! I have set myself a new challenge, the valentine's day challenge ;-) I will have to loose the remaining pounds before february 14 th 2008. I will start on the 28th of December this way I can tackle the inevitable christmas pounds.




Weight Chart







Hope all you ladies have reached goals/ changed patterns and are feeling ready and able to tackle anything!
C-you all @ the valentine challenge!

donderdag 20 december 2007

4 days till christmas eve!

And I still have loads to do!

Dust vacuum and mop my bedroom

finish the bathroom buy new showercurtain I am tired of the circulating 2 :-)

Clean out pantry reorganize and check what needs to be bought

Empty all laundrybaskets well at least till tonight when we fill them up again we all know that that is a neverending story!

Work on homebinder for 30 min

cook
walk with my walking buddy so much fun :-D

Okay off to do my chores!