Welcome

This is a documentation of my journey seeking "my best self"
I am a blessed woman, 2 healthy loving sons and an abundance of all that one needs.
This is not a journey to more of the material stuff, but in seeking my passion and living my best life.
Due to illness, parenting, and busy everyday life, life has lived me instead of me living life.
The purpose of this journey is to turn this back one step at a time.
How will I accomplish this? This I will learn gradually, one thing I am sure of each day of my journey will take me closer to myself.

Blessings,

ETA: I am separated and I can assure you it is for the better. The boys and I are doing good, they are sad but at least they have some breathing space now and don't have to march to the beat of their father's drum anymore. I am more relieved than sad and feel freed from his constant state of depression and lathargic way of living.


zaterdag 23 augustus 2008

Phytomer, I heart you!

The stress of rearranging my life after the break-up was mostly visible on my face and neck. I broke out the worse way ever (and that is bad knowin that I have been battling acne most of my late teens and adult life!!) Not only did I look some kind of horrible (honestly if I passed myself on the street I would have sworn I was a junky) it hurt like heylll too!

Sonja, my beautician, who has been doing my brows for the longest time, decided to confront my bad skin and made an appointment with me to clean my pores and put me on facial products that she sweared by. Now I love Sonja caus the woman is a artist with tweezers, she makes you look like you had a mini facelift by just doing the brows, but I just didn't think that anyone could help me ( I am a regular at the dermatoligist and he can't even help me!). My father seeing all the pain (mentally and physically) I was in due to the acne, gave me money to confront my bad skin. I made an appointment with Sonja and she really really really hurt me I was preparing myself to look in the mirror after the treatment and see all kinds of haematoma, wholes and what nots. After 40 min of extreme pain (no itching tho wich is new caus I always break out in a rash from over the counter products) I got up looked in the mirror and was amazed that my face looked much calmer, cleaner and most of the comedones had disappeared, my face felt soft and best of all it wasn't painful or swollen anymore!!! Sonja send me home with a few testers of the products that she used on me and told me to stop using other products and just stick to this line at least till the tester pots where empty.

I was amazed at the result but the pessimist in me told me just wait till you get up in the morning you will have the worse break out ever. I washed my face with the facewash, used the cream and blemishgel and went to bed expecting the worse. Next morning my face had cleared up even more and even the blemishes where fading! I used the line religiously till the testerpots where empty and ran to Sonja to buy the products. I have been using these products for about 2 months now and my face is looking better each day. Sonja promised me that she would help me to get rid of my acne once and for all and it looks like she is keepin her promise.

To help my skin, I try to drink as much mineral water as possible, don't skip my night- and morning routine and try not to touch my face as much.

These are the products I use:




My next appointment with Sonja is in 2 weeks and she sceduled me in for a few make-up lessons as well caus I am in my 30's but have no make-up sense whatsoever! I have to admit that I never liked to see women or girls with acne wearing make-up it just looked like a very bad cover up. I was also afraid that using make-up would just irritate my skin even more. The other thing that made me insecure are my features I am a black girl with green/grey chinese-shaped eyes and I just can't find any tutorials on how to deal with that!!! Hope Sonja will help sort out that insecurity as well!
Love,
Chayil

1 opmerking:

Simply Me zei

I'm glad your skin is clearing up. I've had some awful breakouts recentl because of stress, and I can't afford to do anything about it, and it is getting me down a bit.