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This is a documentation of my journey seeking "my best self"
I am a blessed woman, 2 healthy loving sons and an abundance of all that one needs.
This is not a journey to more of the material stuff, but in seeking my passion and living my best life.
Due to illness, parenting, and busy everyday life, life has lived me instead of me living life.
The purpose of this journey is to turn this back one step at a time.
How will I accomplish this? This I will learn gradually, one thing I am sure of each day of my journey will take me closer to myself.

Blessings,

ETA: I am separated and I can assure you it is for the better. The boys and I are doing good, they are sad but at least they have some breathing space now and don't have to march to the beat of their father's drum anymore. I am more relieved than sad and feel freed from his constant state of depression and lathargic way of living.


zondag 9 december 2007

Fallen off the wagon

Okay so I fell of the wagon, I have had no portion control for the last week and a half and I have not been moving enough. Just yoga once a week and sporadicly a bit of pilates at home. I studied my habits and motivation and came to the conclusion that I am not motivated when I have no goal. My initial goal was to reach a healthy BMI now that I accomplished that I am suffering from lack of motivation. I decided to reach for an old hearts desire. My ultimate goal is to take up ballet again. I haven't danced in 11 yrs!! I used to dance a few times a day (jazz ballet, african dance and my favorite classical ballet) then I got pregnant with son#1 and got really really ill. I never fully recovered since the pregnancy triggered my anemia. Anyway I am straying from subject. I will start balletlessons in september of 2008. Wich means that I have 8,5 months to get lithe!


1st goal is to re-teach myself this stretch


2nd goal is to re-teach myself this one


Well enough goals to reach for now, I will be keeping you posted on the progress.
I am soooo exited by the thought of buying a ballet outfit next summer! I used to visit this lil shop almost weekly when I was a dancer and I was shocked that they didn't go bankrupt when I stopped dancing LOL
Blessings,

2 opmerkingen:

Simply Me zei

Wow! I've love to be able to do either of those stretches. Did you use to do ballet as a child? I really wish my mother had sent me for lessons I think classical trained dancers move so well. Even in just working, and proper posture is just second nature whereas it is something I am trying to teach myself at the moment and finding it really difficult.

Peace.Vrede.Paz zei

Yes I started taking lessons when I was 4 and I continued to take lessons (recreational) till I was 15. When I was 15 I stopped being a recreational dancer and started at the dance academy taking lessons a few times a day, and teaching lower classes. My dream was to travel the world with a large classical ballet company but that bubble was burst when I got pregnant at 19. The pregnancy did not go well and I had a long recovery period so I never went back.