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This is a documentation of my journey seeking "my best self"
I am a blessed woman, 2 healthy loving sons and an abundance of all that one needs.
This is not a journey to more of the material stuff, but in seeking my passion and living my best life.
Due to illness, parenting, and busy everyday life, life has lived me instead of me living life.
The purpose of this journey is to turn this back one step at a time.
How will I accomplish this? This I will learn gradually, one thing I am sure of each day of my journey will take me closer to myself.

Blessings,

ETA: I am separated and I can assure you it is for the better. The boys and I are doing good, they are sad but at least they have some breathing space now and don't have to march to the beat of their father's drum anymore. I am more relieved than sad and feel freed from his constant state of depression and lathargic way of living.


vrijdag 11 januari 2008

Sick and sad.

Well it is official I am sick again! My armpits are totally swollen and infected due to a skin dis-ease I have. I can't lift my right arm further than my chest without fainting from pain. I am so sick and tired, I called the hospital and they told me to come in for an emergency operation but I refused. I just cannot handle that anymore, in the past I was operated on every 2 months and eventhough the operations are short (no longer than 1 hour) I still need total anestesia and it takes up to 2 months to recover wich means by the time one spot heals I get to go back and be cut open again! No thanks! It's lost labour to me infection/operation/heal/start again at infection and so on and so on you get my drift right? The anestesia has caused me to loose quite a bit of my memory I can hardly remember my elders his childhood! It's caused fatique and icening on the cake it caused my anemia to play up yes ladies I am anemic as well. How lucky can one girl be!

I've decided to try a master cleanse to see if I can get rid of all the toxins in my body. I want to do it right so I won't be taking painkillers during that time. I will start coming monday and will continue for 10 days if I didn't die of pain I will continue to complete the 40 days they recommend for chronic ill. I'm not worried about not eating caus I am hardly able to eat right now anyway.

I am truly at the end of my rope, so pray for me that this is going to help.

I won't blog much am not doing much so there is not much to blog about.

"For I, the Lord thy God, will hold thy right hand, saying unto thee, Fear Not! I will help thee." Isaiah 41:13

Blessings,
Chayil

5 opmerkingen:

sweetnes zei

Please rest up and feel better, Ms. Lady!

Reflection zei

I will send up a prayer for you. Please get some rest so you can get your strenght back. Do know you'll be thought about in Tacoma Washington as you take time away form blogging. I pray that you get well soon!!!

The Proverbs Wife zei

I will be praying for your healing and for your endurance. I will also pray that God's perfect will be carried out for your situation and that He will guide you in making the best decisions for treatment.

He is the great Physician.

Yana zei

You are heavily in my thoughts and prayers. I am sending you light and positive energy for healing and recovery. You are a child of light and therefore cannot be broken by pain or circumstance. May God see you victoriously through this current ordeal swiftly.

With love (hugs) and light!

Michelle zei

Please read Louise Hay's book "You can heal your Life" A lot of healing comes through the energy we carry in our thoughts and self beliefs. The affirmations are very powerful and life changing. Give it a shot.