Welcome

This is a documentation of my journey seeking "my best self"
I am a blessed woman, 2 healthy loving sons and an abundance of all that one needs.
This is not a journey to more of the material stuff, but in seeking my passion and living my best life.
Due to illness, parenting, and busy everyday life, life has lived me instead of me living life.
The purpose of this journey is to turn this back one step at a time.
How will I accomplish this? This I will learn gradually, one thing I am sure of each day of my journey will take me closer to myself.

Blessings,

ETA: I am separated and I can assure you it is for the better. The boys and I are doing good, they are sad but at least they have some breathing space now and don't have to march to the beat of their father's drum anymore. I am more relieved than sad and feel freed from his constant state of depression and lathargic way of living.


zondag 30 september 2007

My loc journey has finally begun!

Yesterday I travelled to Rotterdam to have my hair twisted to start my locs. It took about 6 hours but I am very pleased about the results. About 2 inches where cut off caus I did not like the ends.


This is the endresult:


No time to write...

...caus this has been the sickward for the last few days. Boys and I had the flu and dh had to work from home to take care of us. I did not keep track of what I ate but I am sure it was no more than 1300 kcal each day. I will start keeping track of things starting tomorrow. Hope everyone is doing well!

Blessings,
Chayil

woensdag 26 september 2007

To OP or not to OP

That is the question.

Yesterday I started oil pulling with castoroil mostly for my aching teeth/gums, after 10 minutes of OP I spat out the oil and I repeated this in the afternoon again this time for 15 min. This morning when I woke up I was in tremendous pain and my armpits are totally inflamed and I feel like the inside of my body is on fire! I still OP same effect on teeth and no mucus. I read that OP can make conditions worse and that it is a sign of healing, I am so confused now caus if my body would act up this way despite the antibiotics I would go to the emergency ward straight away caus it would be a sign that the antibiotics are not working and that I probably need an operation or an high dose of antibiotic drip. Now I have no idea what to do is it really possible that the Op would have this kind of effect in 24 hours?? (I posted this on the NP-forum as well caus I really need advise)

I will ask dh to get me some unrefined sunfloweroil today for the OP cause I wonder if it is the Castoroil that is giving me these side effects. I know that castoroil can really trigger skin conditions.

Day 9: What I ate today....

Breakfast


Bread roll 1 130 kcal

Cheese 48+ 1/2 slice 38 kcal

coffee with sweetner 1 mug(225 ml) 0 kcal

Milk low-fat 1 mug 110 kcal

Total 278 kcal


Lunch

Whole weat 2 slices 170 kcal

Low fat sandwich meat 10 kcal

Total 180 kcal

Snacks etc

Sultana naturel 1 pack 170 kcal

Total 170 kcal

Dinner

fajita de pollo 100 gr. 158 kcal

Salsa 3 tbspoons 25kcal

Wraps 3 390 kcal

Total 573 kcal

Daytotal 1201 kcal
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maandag 24 september 2007

Taking better care of me!

I really have to start taking better care of me. Specially the "outside" of me. My eyebrows are in desperate need of plucking and my beautician is dealing with a sudden death of a beloved familymember so she is not up to working. I am going to call around to see if I can make an appointment at another beautician for tomorrow morning when the lil one is at the daycare. I have been rubbing nivea on my body for the last 3 days but I still haven't established a morning routine and tend to walk around in my robe till at least 11 o'clock.

Today I tried oil pulling, my gums and my front teeth are hurting horribly and I will do anything to avoid going to my dentist right now, still trying to get over the shock of my last 400 euro dental bill for reconstructing a molar. I op-ed with castor oil caus that was the only oil in my bedroom ;-) and managed to do it for 10 minutes not bad for a first timer I thought. I did it around 7 and since I spat it out (it was totally milky I know TMI) I have a stuffed sinus. I have been blowing my nose and running to the toilet every 5 minutes! Wasn't expecting that but I guess it's a sign that it's working (right??!!) I am going to try and find unrefined sunflower or sesameoil today caus castoroil is not sold in the netherlands so my parents send it from Surinam for me to use in my hair. Don't want to "waste" it on oilpulling. I also need to find a toothpaste for sensitive teeth my teeth are really the illtreated stepchildren of my body they suffer from all the antibiotics I have to take and from all the vomiting when I am sick. Poor babies I will nurse them back to health. They are good to me other than the hurting right now I have only one filling/reconstruction on the molar the rest of my teeth and molars are all in good health.

While OP I used a Cuticle & Nailremedy caus my hands and nails really needs some attention. I always had my nails done with acrylic by a nailstylist. It was the easiest way to have beautiful hands and nails without having to fuss with it myself. But a few months ago I had a horrible experience I had to have an operation and the surgeon told me that he rather have me take the nails off for the operation. That was pure hell! My nails had to be soaked in some kind of chemical bath a few minutes every day and i was left with damaged extremely thin nails. It took about 4 months to completely heal! Needless to say I refuse to go through that again so I have been keeping my nails short ever since. I don't like the look of short nails it looks uncared for and neglected so I want to start growing them out again. I just have a problem with growing nails once they all get to a good length one always has to break or tear!!! I am going to do the Cuticle & Nailremedy along with using a nailhardner for a week or 2 and when my nails grow out I will go to a nailstylist to file my nails and give me a manicure (yes you guessed right, clumsy me can't file or polish nails).

Well that is it for now it's almost 10 and I have a list of errands that I need to run today.

Day 8 What I ate today..

I am sooooooo moody! My teeth/gums hurt tremendously and I can't drink anything without a straw and even with a straw it hurts! I asked the dental ass. what I can do about it and they recomended some products for sensitive teeth and gums. If they don't work within a week I have to go to the dentist to get some kind of medication with probiotics and antibiotics wich I will have to take along with my regular antibiotics. I want to cry I thought I finally found an antibiotic that did not make me too tired and that did not have horrible side effects and than this happens.

Breakfast

Bread roll 1 130 kcal

Cheese 48+ 1/2 slice 38 kcal

coffee with sweetner 1 mug(225 ml) 0 kcal

Milk low-fat 1 mug 110 kcal

Total 278 kcal

Lunch

currant bun 1 130 kcal

Total 130 kcal

Snacks etc

Dried prunes 3 30 kcal

Grapes 100 gr. 64 kcal

Total 94 kcal

Dinner
Dh asked (demanded ? LOL) this morning to eat fries, so the meal today is not healthy and I am stuffed! I hate this feeling I never get this feeling from eating regular food but I was so moody/tired today that I had no energy nor will to cook something separate for me. I also missed veggies but neither of the males in this house wanted veggies with their food they claimed that it would spoil the meal!! I hope that this full feeling disappears so I can fix myself a green or fruitsalad.

Schnitzel 80 gram 134 kcal

Chilisaus 1 tbspoon 15 kcal

Tomatenketchup 1 tbspoon 15 kcal

Fries (frideale fries with less fat) 150 gr. 300 kcal

Total 464 kcal

Daytotal 966 kcal


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YES It's been a week! What I ate today day 7...

Brunch (woke up way to late for sewingclass so I had to run out of the house without breakfast)

currant bun 2 260 kcal
coffee with sweetner 1 mug(225 ml) 0 kcal
Milk low-fat 1 mug 110 kcal

Total 370 kcal

Snacks etc

Banana 1 90 kcal
Dried prunes 3 30 kcal

Total 120 kcal



My son has a day off from school and wanted to bake brownies. My oven broke a few months ago and now I have to bake everything in the combi-microwave so I am a bit nervous about the end result! Keep your fingers crossed ;-) I can't wait to taste them.... 50 minutes to go LOL Update brownies are delicious we just tried a lil piece to "check" hmmmmm I ate way to much dinner so I am too full to have my brownie as dessert but I will have some in an hour or 2 with a large mug of tea YUMMIE

Dinner

Spaghetti Bolognese 300 gram 360 kcal
garlicbread 120 kcal

total 480 kcal

Daytotal 970 Brownie 30 gr. 141 kcal Daytotal 1111 kcal


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